Whispers Of Rest

Whispers Of Rest

When I Was Struggling With Panic Attacks: What I Learned

By December 6, 2017 Leave a Comment

“When God is going to do something wonderful, He always starts with a hardship; when God is going to do something amazing, He starts with an impossibility.” Anne Lamott

I love this quote. It’s one of my favorites. Because it brings me to tell you my story of the amazing thing God did for me in my impossible.

Before I share about my panic attacks below, I want to apologize to my email subscribers for posting the wrong link for my new Advent Podcast on Monday! I linked to last week’s “What Makes You Come Alive?” Podcast instead! 🙂 lol

Click below for the correct link to this week’s Special Advent Podcast
Listen & Share with a Friend!
Spark Hope: Sing Your Song Instead of Letting Stress Steal Your Spark
(Email subscribers: Once you click the link, you’ll go to my blog.
Just click the arrow at the top of my blog post to listen to the podcast.)

I poured my heart out to record this special encouragement in the podcast, just for a new Advent Series, so I don’t want you to miss it. Enjoy & share with a friend! Let me know what you think! I’d love to hear.  It’ll encourage me to keep going. ‘Cuz you know, starting new things isn’t always easy –but it becomes easy when you have friends for the journey. When you know you’re not alone, right?

Spark Hope, Not Stress features my talk with best-selling author and blogger Kristen Welch (We Are That Family, “Raising Grateful Kids in an Entitled World“) will inspire you to:

  • Refresh your soul beautiful Audio Devotional & Music
  • Slow Down & Break the Cycle of Busy to spark God’s HOPE in you
  • Combat discouragement whenever you feel “It’s too late!”
  • How to stay inspired, rather than let stress steal your spark
  • Learn the power of “the secret chocolate stash” to capture the moments that mean the most to your heart
  • Nurture gratitude in the heart of your child by nurturing your own heart from a place of honesty and vulnerability

Listen to the Podcast Now! Click here to listen on the blog Or Click here to listen on iTunes OClick here to listen on the Soundcloud site!

Listen to a new podcast every week. I’ll take you on my personal journey to build a life of meaning as God’s beloved! Rather than disappearing for 2-3 years to live my life & write a book, I’m sharing what I learn, as the journey unfolds with you! Inspired by my 40day Devotional Whispers of Rest: Revitalizing Your Soul With God’s Love. 

When I Was Struggling With Panic Attacks

When I was struggling with panic attacks, one thing that scared me was how people would see me. Because I couldn’t do the things I once did, I was afraid people turn away from me because they would think I was broken – and I couldn’t be of use to them.

This was true for some. But, the amazing thing that happened, was that the smaller few who did stay & the few new friends who crossed my path during my season on quietness & healing –as the pieces of my heart were open, scattered & surfacing –they didn’t want something from me.

They were simply my friend. (you were one of them, sweet reader kindred, as I confided in the journey thru my writing and my books Finding Spiritual Whitespace and Whispers of Rest).

I learned I could just be me, sharing stories, a cup of tea, a walk, or go out for dinner – to just share life, even though I had no idea where it was going.

And I learned that what made life meaningful wasn’t where it was going, it was who I was becoming, who I am with and how I can see the world so much more clearly and  honestly, when I don’t have to be busy trying to be someone “better” by doing more or pleasing others or meeting their expectations of “normal”, “blessed” or “happy”.

I found a deeper kind of soul-happy even as tears were falling cuz the One who never left me, who whispered beautiful things to my soul & touched my shoulder w/sunshine, smiled at me thru petals of a rose in bloom, sending sparrows on my path in the morning along a trail & swallows as they swoop in-between tree branches —who held me as I cried was Jesus, whispering, “I’ve got you.” I learned I could be happy, in a different, more beautiful way, becuz I was resting in being loved.

It was on the journey, that I was learning to listen to God in a new way, to listen to His Whispers of Rest. Then, God did the impossible, my heart was awakened with rest, because I was learning my true name is beloved.

Your true name is beloved.

Having learned to rest as beloved, I’m now journeying to LIVE & BUILD my life as Beloved with God’s Whispers of Rest. And I’m sharing what I learn with you via the Coffee Break For Your Soul Podcast.

Click here to listen to the podcast now: http://thebonniegray.com/2017/12/advent-hope-kristenwelch-wk1/ go to iTunes.

I hope my sharing encourages you to remember God is in YOUR impossible – and He is doing something AMAZING on your journey with God as the beloved.

For you are beloved.


What is the impossible or amazing you’re journeying through?

What is God whispering to you?

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I’d love to hearing how today’s words touched your heart.



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