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I think I’m pregnant with promise, but what if I’m wrong?

It’s a question that plagues me like water dripping out of a broken faucet.

I’ve tried to turn off the doubt with positive sayings and even memorized verses.

But, my fears of failing won’t go away.

It’s because God hasn’t given up on me. He wants me to keep moving towards my God-sized dreams.

Yesterday’s Comfort

It’s not the first time God has given me a dream bigger than what I’m capable of.  Most of my life has been spent pursuing what I’ve believed God has called me to do. But I look back and see long stretches of fall and winter. I can’t say those years weren’t fruitful, because I have come to develop a comfort in finding God in them.

I’ve depended on God since my early years as the oldest girl growing up in a single parent family with little means. God is all the Daddy I know, so I stuck to him for dear life.

Dysfunctional upbringing? I sucked up the words of Jesus, like the last oxygen mask left in a broken plane crashing down. Dreams of becoming a writer dashed for a practical engineering degree? I chose to find my joy in serving others instead. A traumatic stint in missions left years marked by solitude and prayer, while singleness past 30 handed me the questions about the gift of singleness.

Even though I later got the surprising joy of getting married, I’ve been learning to be content with the storyline of my life for a very long time.

I got so good at living with the disappointment of yesterday, that I have trouble opening my heart up to taste joy in today…

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…To read the rest of my story – Click here and jump to Holley Gerth’s blog — Heart to Heart — where today’s post is published.

It’s a Double-Feature!

My post today for our Faith Barista Jam on the topic “Discovering God’s Purpose For Me” coincides with my guest post at Holley Gerth’s blog, as part of her ongoing series on “God-Sized Dreams”.

Earlier this year, I met with Holley, co-founder of Dayspring’s (In)Courage website and author of Rain On Me, when she was in California attending the Mt. Herman Writer’s Conference.

Since Holley’s out in Arkansas, it was a rare opportunity to catch her live, and she is the real deal!  We got a chance to share our faith journeys — and I left with with a fuller heart, touched by the transparency and encouragement of a friend in Holley.

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Remember to submit your post for the Faith Barista Jam below, if you have one… then, keep me company by dropping a comment over at Holley’s blog!

(I’ve turned off the comments here, so we can go jam over at there! See you on the “other side”!)

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*** NOW, IT’S YOUR TURN — FAITH BARISTA JAM! ***

Faith Barista Jam Thursdays — I serve up a topic of faith, you write the post. Keep faith fresh with a faith prompt and add your voice to this community.

Today’s topic: Discovering God’s Purpose For Me

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Next week’s 10/7 Topic: How Does Your Faith Affect Your Personality?

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