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Life 2.0 Don’t Bend. Don’t Water It Down. #BeYou (FREE PRINTABLE)

By Bonnie Gray • April 9, 2015 • 13 Comments

“Come and discover a love you don’t have to work for.”
E’yen A. Gardner, Love Letters

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and April’s Shots of Spiritual Whitespace Prompts [printable below].
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It’s daunting.

Starting over.

That’s what I’m doing.

I’m on the other side of my journey to heal.

I don’t have panic attacks anymore like I once did. And even the depression that I’ve experienced for the past couple years is lifting.

But, I’m not the person I once was.  And it doesn’t mean life will resume as it once did.

Maybe you’re feeling this way too? Is God pointing you ahead to a new journey — and even though it might seem easier, you can’t go back to doing life as you have?

I remember when I was debilitated by panic attacks and I’d wake up with a heaviness in my body that I could not shake, I would give anything to be the old Bonnie that I was.  Unaffected by anything. Able to push through and get done whatever needs to get done.

But, now that my heart is awake to the truth of my story, my wounding and my dreams, I can never unsee the things I’ve discovered about myself, God, others and life.

God’s calling me to live a new way — as His beloved.

It’s both exhilarating and also overwhelming.

It’s scary to take on an identity that you never felt could ever be yours.

The Beloved?

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The Second Follow

But, that’s what happens when you uncover your heart.  You’re given a second chance to follow Jesus — in a completely new way — apart from the story you might have been born into or — even the story you chose for yourself — once upon a time.

Jesus says to us, “Come follow me.”  This is not the first “Come follow me” Jesus made to the disciples when he first met them washing their nets fishing.

This is the second “Come follow me”. That is maybe harder.

This second “Come follow me” happened after the resurrection.  After Jesus rose from the dead. After the disciples tasted and experienced loss, pain, fear and their own failures.

The first “Come follow me” was with the physical Jesus.  But, this second one was going to be guided by faith — a Presence inside them.  The Voice of the Holy Spirit.

This Second Follow could only be experienced by listening to a quiet Voice inside them — to step out on a new journey with Jesus.

This Second Follow would take them — beyond what they could see — to experience a new identity.

This new self included a cross and a whole identity — where their stories weren’t perfect — but they were perfectly loved by God.

And as strange as it sounds, this new identity kind of scares me.

Can I really just suddenly leave my old identity — and choose to be God’s beloved?

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Life 2.0

What would be the consequences of living with such a radical identity?

What would be the blessings of such a radical identity?

What would be my story?

My Life 1.0: Longing for Soul Rest. 

I used to exercise my faith by being strong for God. Hiding. People-pleasing. Fearful of my voice.

Now that I am living a life of Spiritual Whitespace, no longer debilitated by panic attacks, God’s been calling me to live Life 2.0.

Life 2.0:  Becoming God’s beloved.

God’s calling me to experience my faith by being God’s beloved. Being fully present.  Soul-nurtured. Speaking in my whole voice.

Since January, I started intentionally making changes — small and big decisions — to only say yes to things that point me in the direction of being God’s beloved. And saying no to what doesn’t.

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I’m giving myself permission to be loved.

And that means making choices that feel scary. 

But, I’m learning sometimes, fear is found at the doorway where we leave who we once were — in order to become who we were meant to be: God’s beloved.

“My presence will go with you and I will give you rest.” Exodus 33:14

A Curious Ending

Fear is what the first women who brought spices to the tomb where Jesus laid — Mary Magdalene, Mary the mother of James, and Salome — found on one morning — along with a stone rolled away.

An angel told them Jesus wasn’t dead.

“He is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him, just as he told you.” Mark 16:7

Then, the strangest, most curious end to a story happened:

“Trembling and bewildered, the women went out and fled from the tomb. They said nothing to anyone, because they were afraid.” Mark 16:8

The women were afraid — even though they were staring at a miracle: life after death.

What Will We Do?

Sometimes, when God rolls away a stone from a tomb in our lives, we can react the same way.  Paralyzed by doubt, disbelief.

We know what to do with dead ends.

But, an empty tomb?  This is not what we expect.

And yet, this is how Mark, the author of the fourth Gospel in the Bible, chose to end the story of Jesus. [The earliest manuscripts do not have verses 9–20 in the text.]

I was shocked and comforted to find this ending post-Easter. God knows how we feel, confronted with a stone rolled away.

We read in the other Gospels that the women eventually did go back to tell the disciples what they saw and heard.

What will we do?

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Don’t Bend

Have you received some words from God? Maybe you are unexpectedly standing before an empty tomb. Or a stone rolled away.

Are you keeping quiet, afraid of where Jesus is leading you?  Is Jesus is asking you to follow Him — in a new way?

Jesus is going before you.  But, you will have to make choices to experience this new journey ahead.

This month post-Easter, I want to encourage you to step out.

Don’t bend. Don’t water yourself down.

Be the you God made.

Begin your version of Life 2.0.

Be the Beloved.

“Don’t bend; don’t water it down;
don’t edit your own soul according to the fashion…” Frank Kafka

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What is your version of Life 2.0? How is Jesus calling you to The Second Follow?

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April’s Shots of Spiritual Whitespace Printable

This month, we’re wrapping up our Virtual Spiritual Whitespace Book Club with April’s Shots of Whitespace Printable.

I hand-picked our April Scripture and 30 Cups of Rest.

How many will you enjoy this month?

Kelly IshmaelA special thank you to Kelly Ishmael Minding My Nest who generously hand-lettered the Shots of Spiritual Whitespace for our Book Club.  Kelly gifted her time and heart to calligraphy and share her photography with us. Please feel free to visit Kelly and share how you’ve enjoyed the printables.

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13 Comments

  • Reply Gary S April 9, 2015 at 1:00 am

    Hello Bonnie,
    Wow, you really nailed it with this posting. I liked the one part where you said, Jesus is going before you, but you will have to make changes. I believe, that if we are going to portray ourselves as Christians to the rest of the world, we must step out in faith in doing new things in our lives. As Jesus said, “Don’t be afraid, just believe.” I will pray for you to be able to keep moving forward in your new life confidently, sure in the knowledge that Jesus indeed will be there. It’s the “Year of No Fear.” Blessings on you.

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  • Reply Valerie Sisco April 9, 2015 at 6:07 am

    Bonnie,
    A resounding yes to God asking me to a new way to walk! I sometimes think about going back to the way it was before he asked me to step out (a few years ago) where it was safer and normal, but I just can’t imagine doing it because he’s changed me. I love how you said Jesus is going ahead of us as we walk this new journey. I’m going to print this post to remind me to follow him in this new way! xo

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  • Reply Lisa notes April 9, 2015 at 7:31 am

    It’s a new day. One after the resurrection. A new journey. I love all your analogies, Bonnie. They are all so hopeful. Grateful I get to follow Jesus with you.

  • Reply Nina April 9, 2015 at 7:47 am

    Beautiful post. Love the idea of the Second Follow and Life 2.0.

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  • Reply charlotte April 9, 2015 at 1:01 pm

    BONNIE I am loving ready these words of truth that echo within me and the journey I am on with my kindred soul sisters. We are already becoming this new 2.0 life and self and it is sweet. A taste of favor in Christ to a weary wandering soul, finally found, finally at rest in this new me. Finally connecting to who was within and forgotten. Fear in escaping the old and embracing the new yet relief to see the truth of it all unfold. My soul exhales today as you put this journey into words, all within echoing out.

  • Reply Lisa April 9, 2015 at 1:48 pm

    All I can say today is thanks.

  • Reply Veronica April 9, 2015 at 2:29 pm

    Hi Bonnie,
    What a beautiful and encouraging post. Love your description of Life 2.0: embracing something new, not rushing the journey, and leaning into God.

  • Reply Meghan April 10, 2015 at 5:18 am

    So refreshing. I love this post. I love the quote at the end about “not editing your own soul.” This hit home for me today. God bless : )

  • Reply Melissa April 13, 2015 at 5:47 am

    This message is such a magnificent blessing that I keep rereading it. The message describes exactly what I am experiencing spiritually – the tomb is open – fear is present – but the opportunity to life fully abounds. As Brene Brown writes, I am completely vulnerable and now I must decide to walk with Jesus in complete vulnerability to live authentically – wholeheartedly – courageously. Life 2.0 – the message and the journey represents a rebirth for so many and I’m thankful for Bonnie for sharing what God continues to place in her heart. Bonnie, you continue to liberate my soul. Blessings to you and your family always.

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